.Simplicity.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007:

i think i'm going to gain a hundred pounds by the end of chinese new year, which is some 12 days from now.

probably because...

chu xi [ie. CNY eve]: had steamboat for reunion dinner, had to help finish the food since my aunt prepared too much.
Drank my can of coke within 5 minutes because my grandma has a weakness for it, but is diabetic.

1st day of CNY: pigged out at my grandparent's place and sat around to gossip with my closer aunts, mum and sister.
later got locked out from my vectors homework, so continued snacking on new year goodies while talking to my grandma.

2nd day: pigged out, yet again on pizza and kfc for dinner at my maternal grandparents' place.

today: finished the container of wasabi peanuts while doing vectors.

no wonder i'm fat.

yuna blogged @ 4:12 PM

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Monday, February 12, 2007:

i have a love-hate relationship with writing essays.

guess i've been little grouchy today because i have a 1500 word gp essay to do T.T

and the deadline is tomorrow. i only found out on sunday afternoon, when i was outside.

T.T T.T T.T x1000

this is terrible!! and i don't particularly like the topics... which in this case makes writing an absolutely tiring and brain-draining task which i loathe, but have to complete since i'll probably be sent for dc if i don't.

ugh, ugh, ugh. if only i could set my hamster loose on the people who invented the commonwealth essay writing competition.

yuna blogged @ 7:03 PM

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Thursday, February 01, 2007:

.invisible.

i didn't think it would be this bad. it makes me sad and pissed just to think of myself this way, but it seems to be staring at me in the face >.<

its been manifesting in so many forms in my life, so much that i've lost count.

sometimes i go out of my way to help someone. not only do i get any thanks, people make use of me.

invisible helper.

another example: take my maths assignment. my teacher found it fitting to write this on it: sloppy and incomplete work. she gave me a D-

i felt like walking up to her, tearing it and throwing the shreds in her face.

apparently she can't see beyond the fact that there are blanks on my paper.

invisible effort.

i wonder if she ever considered how much numbers and strange mathematical symbols scare me.

i wonder again, if she ever considered that i actually took about 3 times the normal amount of time( 3 x 2 hours maths exam makes 6 hours) just to process all that shit. i just can't do certain questions.

her job is to teach me how to do maths.

and all she could write was that. all i can say is i don't appreciate her absoultely insensitive comments even if she's trying, in some perverse way, to motivate me.

yuna blogged @ 7:35 PM

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